Nature’s Lent

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Alberta, boredom, Calgary, changing seasons, choice, cycling, Diana Schwenk, Life's like that, living in the moment, longing, lonliness, reflection, rest, stillness, summer, waiting, winter

Winter makes me question all sorts of choices I’ve made. It passes slowly, each day seemingly the same as the one before. The alarm goes off while it’s still dark out. I drink coffee, shower, dress, get in my car and go to work. I come home, eat, watch some TV, go to bed, maybe read a chapter or two. The alarm goes off while it’s still dark out.

It’s a low time for me, a time when nature sleeps beneath the snow. I reflect on the past. I think about the things I could have, should have done differently. I mourn what is lost. I let go of things I can’t change, things that aren’t important. I re-prioritize. It’s a time when I feel as though something is missing. A time when I long for something else, when I long for summer.

But this year before the spring, in January and February when it felt like I could not take the dark, stillness and cold anymore, or the day-in, day-out sameness, it occurred to me that maybe that’s the way it’s meant to be. Maybe it’s what allows me to start again with a fresh perspective.

It’s nature’s lent. A time of rest and reflection and yes, a time of maddening boredom too. A time to long for the sun’s warmth, and yet, somehow, the perfect springboard to an all-the-more enjoyable summer.

And I do love summer. And this past Sunday’s afternoon bike ride was well worth the long wait!

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~ HUMP DAY CHRONICLES ~

The Corner Of My Eye

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I never knew her name, even though she was my neighbour.

I wrote about her once here. For the most part though, I never paid much attention to her. Sure, I saw her out-of-the-corner-of-my-eye. I even pitied her. And if I am to be completely honest, I felt guilty when I saw her. Guilty because she reminded me that there are many elderly people who are all alone in this world.

Another neighbour who lives a couple of houses to the right stopped to talk to me this past Saturday. She asked me if it was true that the bird lady had passed away. I looked to the left, a couple of buildings over, to the bird lady’s balcony and noticed that her balcony had been cleared of her belongings. To be honest I’ve been wondering if something happened to her. I hadn’t seen her drive slowly around the block or feed the birds in quite some time.

I told my neighbor that once in late summer, I had walked past her balcony to see if I could see a sign of her. I did not. And there was no management phone number on the apartment building that I could call to inquire about her.

So I did nothing.

Me.

The person who goes on and on about the importance of community…

I wonder why I didn’t reach out to her. Well actually, I think I know why.

I was afraid that she might take up a lot of my time.

That there would be things I couldn’t do, if I was involved with her. Things that I would miss. That I would have to give up.

And on a more personal level, I was afraid that I might one day be in her situation. That was something I definitely did not want to think about.

~ HUMP DAY CHRONICLES ~

I never knew her name and I don’t know what happened to her. But I do know that I don’t want to be someone who sees people out of the corner of my eye…

What Makes Your Top 5?

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200 words, darkness, Diana Schwenk, Diana's Enormous Book of Quotes, family, health, lonliness, nothingness, peace, priorities, simplicity, Stephen Covey, too much going on, white noise

The key is not to prioritize what’s on your schedule, but to schedule your priorities….The main thing is to keep the main thing the main thing. ~ Stephen Covey

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Is this you?

Is your life full of stuff? Is there so much going on you can’t hear yourself think? Is every person, everything vying for your attention?

Your family. Unpaid bills. Cupboards that need to be restocked. The car needs gas. Your house is falling apart. The toilet needs fixing. Your guilt. Your appointments.

Your life is falling apart. Your health. Your heart breaks. Your body aches. You’re not where you thought you’d be by now.

Job loss. Money problems. Work pressures. Your addictions. You’re getting old.

You fear you might go mad.

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Now Imagine it’s all gone.

Everything gone.

The white noise is gone.

Silence – save for the sound of your own beating heart and breathing.

It’s dark.

You can’t see your hand in front of your face.

Lonely.

Nothing.

You fear you might go mad.

Now imagine you’re granted the return of 5 things.

~ DIANA’S ENORMOUS BOOK OF QUOTES ~

What makes your TOP 5?