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Alberta, boredom, Calgary, changing seasons, choice, cycling, Diana Schwenk, Life's like that, living in the moment, longing, lonliness, reflection, rest, stillness, summer, waiting, winter
Winter makes me question all sorts of choices I’ve made. It passes slowly, each day seemingly the same as the one before. The alarm goes off while it’s still dark out. I drink coffee, shower, dress, get in my car and go to work. I come home, eat, watch some TV, go to bed, maybe read a chapter or two. The alarm goes off while it’s still dark out.
It’s a low time for me, a time when nature sleeps beneath the snow. I reflect on the past. I think about the things I could have, should have done differently. I mourn what is lost. I let go of things I can’t change, things that aren’t important. I re-prioritize. It’s a time when I feel as though something is missing. A time when I long for something else, when I long for summer.
But this year before the spring, in January and February when it felt like I could not take the dark, stillness and cold anymore, or the day-in, day-out sameness, it occurred to me that maybe that’s the way it’s meant to be. Maybe it’s what allows me to start again with a fresh perspective.
It’s nature’s lent. A time of rest and reflection and yes, a time of maddening boredom too. A time to long for the sun’s warmth, and yet, somehow, the perfect springboard to an all-the-more enjoyable summer.
And I do love summer. And this past Sunday’s afternoon bike ride was well worth the long wait!
~ HUMP DAY CHRONICLES ~
Chatter Master said:
I love the name of the post. And I think I feel a lot like you do. Using the seasons like we do. As humans I do believe we are meant for cycles. 😉
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dianasschwenk said:
Thanks so much Colleen! ❤
Diana xo
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Jennifer Kelland Perry said:
Nice writing, Diana! Speaking of which, maybe a sequel reading would relieve your boredom a little? 😉
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dianasschwenk said:
Well the weather is nicer now and nature’s lent is over Jennifer! I heard they got snow in Nova Scotia last week? egads! ❤
Diana xo
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Jennifer Kelland Perry said:
It’s nicer here too, thank heavens. 🌺
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cyclingrandma said:
Lovely thoughts. I love the change in seasons- changing clothes, the weather, nature. Though it sure seems the weather patterns are in a flux, no thanks to the US leadership. Let’s hope the rest of the world can take the lead on this important issue while we figure out what to do with the imbecile in the White House. Enjoy summer!
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dianasschwenk said:
These are strange times,Lisa. I wish you a wonderful summer Too! ♡
Diana xo
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joannerambling said:
Yeah my alarm goes off at 4.30am and it is cold and dark but I get up get dressed head out to do my morning workout but not this morning, ok the alarm went off I got up and dressed came out to start my workout but didn’t get much done because I started to feel like I was going to throw up so rush to the bathroom didn’t throw up but felt like shit so I packed it in and went back to bed for two hours than I get up again and still feel sick but had to get Leo off to school
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dianasschwenk said:
Oh no! I hope you’re feeling better now Jo-Anne. ❤
Diana xo
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Val Boyko said:
I am a believer in hibernation during the Winter. Just like Mother Nature! It’s hard to let go of our own expectations and “shoulda” until we reframe our thinking. Thanks for sharing Diana💛
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dianasschwenk said:
And maybe we need that hibernation period to do just that, right Val? As always, thanks for stopping by. ❤
Diana xo
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Healing Grief said:
Each season reveals a layer within us. So glad your summer is arriving! The landscape and the weather for your bike ride looks perfect ☀️☀️☀️
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dianasschwenk said:
Yes, it sure seems to, Karen. ❤
Diana xo
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