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How very softly you tiptoed into my world. Almost silently, only a moment you stayed.
Today is Jesse’s birthday.
In many ways, his birth was very much like that of others.
Except Jesse was still-born.
I knew he was dead before they induced labour.
The room was reverently quiet.
As if everyone there was a silent witness paying their first and last respects.
In a way, giving birth to Jesse was one of the most beautiful experiences I’ve ever had. He may have died within me, but I think being born was a rite of passage for him; and for me.
Had he lived, Jesse would be turning 22 today.
I have never really talked about him much.
Not because I wasn’t deeply affected by his death.
Because I was.
I felt him grow inside me.
I felt him move within.
I talked to him every day.
And I held his still body in my arms.
To me he was a person who lived
and died.
~ DIANA’S ENORMOUS BOOK OF QUOTES ~
Happy Birthday my son – until we meet again
Kristi said:
Teared up…..so sad, but so beautifully written. Could feel your love for him in every sentence. Sorry that you went through this pain.
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dianasschwenk said:
Thanks Kristi. ❤ One day I will see him again.
Diana xo
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bwhite21 said:
This really hit me. My son Jesse will be 22 in a few months. Losing a child is the worst loss of all. Tears in Heaven has always resonated with me for this reason. I hope that you have another child(ren) that can partially replace the loss. My mom lost my older brother so I know there is no substitution. It is the process of a life that was unfortunately taken from you, leaving only what may have been. I am so sorry…
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dianasschwenk said:
Wow! You have son named Jesse who is turning 22? Happy Birthday to him!
Thank you for your kindness and for sharing your story b. I do have a beautiful daughter who makes my heart swell with pride and gratitude.
thank you ❤
Diana xo
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Denise Hisey said:
Jesse left a permanent mark on your heart… How beautiful his story is, even though it is too short. Thank you for sharing it with us. It is an honor.
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dianasschwenk said:
Thank you Denise. ❤
Diana xo
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Jean said:
Jesse’s life that will be with you forever…and it shows in your deep respect for life and optimism. Appreciate sharing this small tender corner of your life.
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dianasschwenk said:
Thank you so much Jean. ❤
Diana xo
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Sheryl said:
Lovely. . . What a beautifully written tribute to your son. My thoughts are with you.
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dianasschwenk said:
Thank you Sheryl. ❤
Diana xo
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The Writing Waters Blog said:
How very difficult and transforming for you.
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dianasschwenk said:
Yes. Thank you. ❤
Diana xo
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Lily Lau said:
This was so touching, Diana… I send you many many hugs in this special day.
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dianasschwenk said:
Thank you so much Lily. ❤
Diana xo
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Deb Weyrich-Cody said:
Oh Diana, MANY hugs my sweet girl!
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dianasschwenk said:
Thanks so much Deb!
Diana xo
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Jim McKeever said:
Beautiful, Diana … thank you for sharing that most intimate story.
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dianasschwenk said:
You’re welcome Jim and thank you. ❤
Diana xo
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markbialczak said:
I share my birthday with your Jesse, Diana, with respect and honor and some tears to meet him this way and on this day. I read your story and bow to your love and your big heart for your little boy you held in your arms on his day of birth. Till you two meet again, my frend, till you two meet again, may your memories remain this sweet and tender.
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dianasschwenk said:
Thanks Mark and Happy Birthday to you too!
Diana xo
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Patty B said:
{{Hugs}}
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dianasschwenk said:
Thank you Patty. ❤
Diana xo
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Alan A. Malizia: Contagious Optimism! Co-Author said:
I’m so sorry Diana. However, although such a sad event as it was, I’m happy for Jessie. Because unlike too many today, he was lovingly wanted.
My thoughts and prayers as always.
-Alan
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dianasschwenk said:
That is a good point Alan.
Diana xo
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John Buller said:
I was so moved by this poignant posting Diana.
My heart goes out to you and is thankful that you bless others so richly through the pain you have experienced. You are a very special person.
Sincerely
John
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dianasschwenk said:
Thank you so much John.
Diana xo
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utesmile said:
I didn’t know Diana, You wrote this beautifully for Jesse! Hugs! xx Ute x
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dianasschwenk said:
Thank you so much Ute. ❤
Diana xo
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joannerambling said:
This made me cry
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dianasschwenk said:
Aww – thank you for your empathy Jo-Anne. ❤
Diana xo
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Judy Berman said:
I lost two daughters – both stillborn. They are in my heart and mind. Wishing you all the best, Diana. It is never easy. luv, Judy
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dianasschwenk said:
Thank you Judy. So sorry for your loss too. ❤
Diana xo
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Chatter Master said:
I’m sorry for your loss.
And this was an amazing testimony to his life.
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dianasschwenk said:
Thank you ❤
Diana xo
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Val Boyko said:
How moving and precious to be a part of this with you Diana.
Peace and love
Val xo
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dianasschwenk said:
Thank you Val, peace and love to you too. ❤
Diana xo
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cyclingrandma said:
So sorry for your loss. My parents lost a child and I know many others. You never really recover and there’s always that feeling of what if.. who would that person be. Thank you for sharing a difficult time in your life and all wishes for a happy 2015.
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dianasschwenk said:
Thank you Lisa. My parents lost a child too, a boy named Henry. ❤
Diana xo
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Healing Grief said:
What a beautiful tribute and post for Jesse on his birthday Diana! He will always be apart of you and your beautiful big heart and you will meet again. Nathan and Jesse are the same age this year, so lets hope they are good friends in Heaven and that they continue to watch over us. Im sending hugs of love to you today.
Karen
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dianasschwenk said:
That is awesome Karen! I bet they are friends. ❤
Diana xo
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elizabeth2560 said:
Oh Diana, I had no idea.
Much love and hugs to you xoxo
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dianasschwenk said:
Thank you Elizabeth. ❤
Diana xo
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Minuscule Moments said:
Diana a beautiful tribute to a tiny soul that lived upon this earth if but for a short while inside your tummy. You bonded and shared time together. Never forgotten.
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dianasschwenk said:
Thank you Kath. ❤
Diana xo
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Ann Koplow said:
Tears in heaven and on earth today, Diana. Much love to you.
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dianasschwenk said:
Thank you Ann. ❤
Diana xo
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Wyrd Smythe said:
Wow, Diana, I had no idea. I’ll join with these others in wishing for, and sending you, peace, joy and love.
And flowers: 🌹🌺🌻🌹🌷🌻🌺🌹🌷🌻🌹💐🍁
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dianasschwenk said:
Aww thanks for the flowers Smitty! ❤
Diana xo
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Ian Munro @ leadingessentially.com said:
Diana this post speaks of such incredible love and strength. I feel the same tightness in my throat when I listen to Tears In Heaven as well, although not as strongly as right now. My energy is for you today!
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dianasschwenk said:
Thank you Ian. That song came out around the same time. I tear up a bit every time I hear it. ❤
Diana xo
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Jennifer's Journal said:
Diana,
My heart breaks for what you went through. Sending love and compassion to you today. ❤
Jennifer xoxoxo
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dianasschwenk said:
Thanks Jennifer! ❤
Diana xo
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mrs fringe said:
(((((Hugs))))) for your tender heart. Your forever son. Sending peace, prayers, and ❤
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dianasschwenk said:
Thanks so much mrs. f! ❤
Diana xo
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